Drinking Cheap Red Wine

UGH! The frustration.

My delegate application was rejected. I was so sad. But I shouldn't really fret too much because in the end, it was myself who decided not to go to UMA. Stupid me. Although, there were other people who didn't go either and made it. And she herself said that my application was good! Hers was obviously better ("The written part doesn't count, its all about how good you speak", ok yeah right bs). But let's not be bitter eh? Hopefully... (ugh) next year I'll get in. Geez I really don't have that many years left do I?

Hmm. I've had piles of work lately... not to mention all my stupid extracurriculars. Sometimes I really wonder how everyone else manages. I mean, I'm not even doing a sport this year and I still find myself waking up at 5:30 at least 3 or 4 times each week. Is this normal? But when I look past the sleepy GO train rides and grumpy wake-ups, I feel proud of everything I have undertaken this year. A true departure from myself of past years.

Speaking of which, my twig people photos are due at the end of the month... (isn't that tomorrow??) and so are my French pieces, which I haven't even started on (this is like déja vu from October too). I'd best learn not to procrastinate. Oddly, in F2 and M3 I would always scorn procrastinators ("Dude its not that hard to do it; just start on the day its assigned!") but now I find myself leaving it all last minute. I even sent my delegate application 5 minutes before the deadline. Let's hope I can manage my time better.

Cafe Blanc auditions today... Apparently, we did good (according to my fellow instrumentalists) but I really couldn't hear Alice or myself so... I dunno. But compared to that other guy playing some classical piano piece, I think we have a decent chance of getting in. All that practicing and stressing must have paid of after all.

Getting my snowboard this weekend, hopefully. It's under $200 and looks decent... Sort of like David's except it's beige, not black. Too bad I can't find it on the net (it's a late model). Hope they can give me a discount =P.

kamster

Music [ To the Ears ]

Ahhh the world of mp3 players. I'm pretty sure there are mp4 players now too?

Anyways, lets talk sound bytes. My only mp3-playing device (which of course plays alot of other file formats also) is an old model (I can't even find it on the net anymore) at least 5 or some odd generations back. It has 256 megabytes of memory (which is tiny compared to what the mp3s of today can hold) and fits in the palm of my hand. It is circular, and is black ringed with orange. I originally got another silver mp3 around four years ago from Sony as well, but it broke. So I used the warranty to get myself another one. This one was only marginally better, and still had the same dismal amount of storage space. But for someone like me, 256 megabytes is sometimes enough. Why? Because I find keeping my library updated too time-consuming. And using limewire makes me feel bad. So, I stuck with this 256 megabyte player, and it has suited me fine so far.

But if you're a serious audiophile, I'd suggest something that has more memory and more features. For example, Sony's current model of mp3 player holds 8 times as many songs as mine does and costs 1/3 as much as mine did. Oh well. Just buy an 8 gigabyte iPod nano because they are just too cool.

Yeah I woke up early today.

kamster

Delegation

I submitted my SOMA App. Cross your fingers that I'll make it (and that they won't notice I didn't go to UMA... or go to Debate Society).

kamster

Golden

These ideas are nightmares to white parents
Whose worst fear is a child with dyed hair and who likes earrings
Like whatever they say has no bearing
Its so scary in a house that allows no swearing
To see him walking around with his headphones blaring
Alone in his own zone, cold and he don't care
He's a problem child, what bothers him all comes out
When he talks about his fuckin' dad walkin' out'
Cus he hates him so bad that he locks him out
If he ever saw him again, he'd probably knock him out
His thoughts are whacked, he's mad so he's talkin' back
Talkin black, brainwashed from rock and rap
He sags his pants, do rags and a stocking cap
His stepfather hit him so he socked him back
And broke his nose, this house is a broken home
There's no control, he just lets his emotions go

{C'mon} Sing with me,
{Sing}, sing for the years
{Sing it} Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
{C'mon}Sing it with me, just for today, maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away...

number 1

kamster

Delicate Deception

Oh man.

We humans are such impressinable creatures, are we not? Prone to sudden infatuations and crushes, to the exclusion of all else. Such is the nature of sin; we know what we're getting ourselves into, but we simply cannot look past the masks and disguises. Just like in that book; they know when their friends are decieved, but for the sake of themselves are blinded.

Hmm... today there are no classes. Yesterday they ended at twelve. How nice! But right now I've got to work on my SOMA application... due today at 12! Hopefully I can convince that my lack of MUN experience won't hinder my performance.

Oh, and fellowship today too. What are we doing? Better be something good >>.

kamster

*edit
Not sin, just something that we know we'll regret.

Apologies

Wow.

Sorry >< I've been so lately busy and have had not time to write. Yeah, I've really got to re-prioritize right now. I realize lately I've been placing too much focus on trivial things and straying from things in my life that I should be paying attention to; that is... my work and school related relationships, to teachers especially. But other than that it's been ok. I've really been trying to keep my grades up and at the same time manage my other stuff like my church life and also my own leisure and stuff. Although, theres just too much stuff going on too think about that right now. Now I have just a few minutes to myself to think and write, and hopefully I can continue what I'm doing now and things will hopefully go uphill from here.

Also, I am SO excited for this winter season. I swear I saw a couple snowflakes the other day, and that really gets my pulse racing. I will hopefully have many more chances to improve my technique than last winter, when I pretty much stagnated. I'm also totally excited for Blue, if that goes though (sorry Dr. Seus moment). And also... this thursday. Please. Wow, I missed SAW but im glad, because I probably wouldn't be able to sleep for a couple weeks at least. No school this friday, awesome.

And... I really want this jacket for winter, although it is pretty expensive: http://www.sportchek.ca/sportchek/do/style?menuId=260&styleId=43265

So please open up your heart and donate to kamster's Awesome New Snowboarding Jacket Fund (official charity number 1065728)!

kamster

Trick or Treat!!!

Happy belated Halloween!

I myself didn't go... I think I'm too old. I didn't give out candy either... I feel kind of bad but then again, I didn't really want kids ringing my doorbell all night long. There's too much work to go trick or treating anyways.

kamster